Move In Day

On Saturday morning around 9 a.m., I left home and hit the road around 10:00 a.m. My two uncles and one aunt came to join my sister, my mom, and me to San Jose. I slept most of the way to San Jose since the trip itself was a 6-8 hour drive. Besides, what else can you do if you're stuck in a car with a Chinese speaking family. I couldn't read since all my books were packed. It wasn't until the last hour that I decided to stay away and talk with my family. Throughout the conversations, I made last minute promises and confessions.

We arrive at the university at 5:30 p.m. just in time to move in since the closing time was 6:00.

I came thinking that I would live on the 10th floor, but a change of plans were made. I would now live on the 12th floor which is the very top floor of my building.

The first thing I noticed when I walked on the 12th floor was that it was a little hot in the room. The floor was empty since I was moving in a day earlier than my scheduled move in date. I came in to my room not knowing what it would look like.

 Here's front entrance to my room. (Postmarked 8/23/10)

I immediately dropped off and move everything into my dorm. I didn't unpack everything just in case if my roommate wanted to change beds or desks.

My family and I scanned the room for any damages. I was given a paper to document any noticeable damages.

After scanning, I decided to go with my family to San Francisco just for the sake one last family time before college.

We left the campus around 6:30 to go back to the hotel and look around the area for Chinese food. We ate and then we went back to the hotel to play with my cousin and my niece Sienna.

The Elephant

Aug. 21st, 2010 - 1:58 A.M.

Thoughts are coming at my heard like thin needles piercing through barely leaving any concrete details to grasp on. It's a mixture of lack of sleep and other emotions that confuse me at this moment.

In about 8 hours, I will be on the road to my new Life.

The one thing I know for sure is that I'm excited, but am I necessarily ready for it?

I'm not sure? It's too soon to tell. The horizons have just broadened itself in this very ungodly hour. It is much too soon to determine whether high school prepared me or not because they have to be experienced and tested. The mixture of emotions contain feelings of sadness and deep regret for not being able to be have as many opportunities to have deeper relationships with friends that I wanted to keep in touch with.

After high school graduation, the world suddenly became so big as if a balloon just became inflated. My once sheltered mindset immediately came into attention with health, personal, financial, and technical aspects. Not that I didn't notice about them, but they suddenly became important. The sense of sudden anticipation release was delayed all the way up until now. My stomach feels slightly uneasy for the future.

I'm nervous. So what? It's normal.

I'm leaving behind my community, my love, my joy, my frustrations, my past, my friends, my family, my church, my foundation, my home... for a whole new world.

Not sure what to expect or feel. I give it all up to faith.